How deep our wounds go is definitely not something we can comprehend with our mind.
Our rational mind and our ego mind wants to be strong and neglect to look at that wounded child and really hold it.
We come from a society, culture and time where being vulnerable was and still is seen as negative, one has to be strong, successful, forceful and fight. Being hurt and hurting for many was the norm.
Many of us come from emotionally unstable, hard, scary, unpredictable and unloving family units.
We paint the picture that it was okay and alright, but the wound still lies underneath.
We create shields and protections over our hearts, over parts of our bodies where that emotional hurt was created, hiding in our bodies the pain and becoming ‘strong’.
But this type of ‘strong’ is not really strong, it is fractured, it is showing a shield of yourself, a mask. In this space we are not whole, there are pieces of our True Self, of our energy which are fractured, they are not within our body, the energy flow and life force has been cut off.
Accessing that wound, that core event of pain hurt regret and injustice which got coded in your system and blocked the energy flow and created a fracture in your wholeness is primordial.
To reach that point that space and allow for the energy of pain or wound to release and drift away so that the energy of life force, which is love can be restored in your system.
How deep our wounds can go I am at times amazed, ‘stories’ that I have thought I had healed are revisited in time at deeper stages.
This happens because we always have deeper capacity for love, for wholeness.
We think it is about the story, but it is about much more. In this life we are healing what has happened throughout unimaginable amounts of time.
The amount we can heal is depending on the amount we are willing to step into the pain and feel it in order to release and restore it. It doesn’t mean lingering in the story, but it is really stepping into it.
Really feeling the deep pain that was created in order to release it.
When our energy returns our hearts can grow, our capacity for Presence, Respect and True Alignment can grow.
Our capacity to hold Ourselves, our Life Force and our Self can be.
When more of us hold these capacities of compassion towards our self, and we can hold our energy our Selves, the more of a beautiful change we will see in our life, in the life of those around us and in the world.
All of this is done step by step, moment by moment - with Presence and Gentle Care and Community and Inspiration.
Because In a world that primes for speed and achievement and race rats, this process of transformation is one of peace, calm and care.
With love and gentle care, Barbara